Saturday, March 29, 2003
ive shifted! -grinns- here!
bitinn` awayy at 7:36 AM
Friday, March 28, 2003and wyn, no, it's not ah moon. or ah sun. or ah gorilla. hahas. sighs. i really wanna go for service tomms. i desperately wanna see xiuhui. why? dont ask me. =/ but no!!! she's not my crush. just to clarify matters.
][jukebox][ jaci velasquez - adore
][feeling][ lovestruck
bitinn` awayy at 8:01 AM
Thursday, March 27, 2003bitinn` awayy at 8:42 AM
wells. let me update you on my beeyootifuuu day. -smiles- spent the afternoon with my mom. -grinns- in the kitchen =.="' yups. she taught me how to make curry puffs. whoah. it was a messy experience with flour. hahas. but i really enjoyed myself. act being at home's not that bad. only if my mum's around. but oh wells. she comes and go like the wind. =/
bitinn` awayy at 8:36 AM
just had this great outburst of canal anger and sorrow at home. yups. i feel so guilty now and am shamed by god's grace. oh my. i never knew that just after a recent asthma attack i can win this battle of voice at home. hahas. am really sorry to my neighbours if i disrupted your peace and quiet ambience. and i was quarrelling with my sister... bahh. hate that sinful nature of mine that erupted out of no where after i havent shouted at any of my family members for an oh so long time. oh wells. peace now val. -smiless- and all is well again! yayness! and you know what puay? thanks. -smiless and squeezes penguin and hear her go "fuufuu"- hahas!
][jukebox][ youth alive - more
][feeling][ ashamed.
bitinn` awayy at 7:34 AM
maybe one day, i'll sail to a perfect paradise
not so far away, where fantasies come to life
and upon a wish, the frog turns into a prince
and swish! lands dotted with japanese quince
where flamingos are white
and all stars shine bright
where dreams last forever
and diamonds sparkling silver
there, nothing bad ever happens
because no one is ever saddened
and we never have to say we sold the world
nor get put in line for not doing what was told
but it's not always just living the perfect dream
and its not like we can do whatever we deem
in this not-so-perfect-place
and not-so-free space
bitinn` awayy at 2:47 AM
Wednesday, March 26, 2003admit it. we all knew it was going to happen, no matter how many protests and rallies and council votes were held. the united states is reaffirming its position as the world's bully and they are at war with iraq.
i was an irritating five-year-old kid the last time they went to war with Iraq. too young to understand anything. i remember being upset because my mom wanted to watch the news instead of reading me a story one night. she tried to explain it to me, but i thought it was silly. playing real life power rangers with people on the oher side of the world? but oh wells, i got sent to my room for fighting with my brother in the backyard.
today, i wish i could go back to that naive disillusionment of my youth. at least five guys who graduated university of illinois with my bro have been deployed. and he knows about a dozen others in the military, but have heard no news on where they are [one that kills me the most was, last I heard was kaylee's older brother was in Kuwait. that's got to be killing her parents and her. i can't imagine losing one child while another is off fighting a war].
it terrifies me that it's this generation fighting this war. it terrifies me that people who were once included among my bro's best friends are the ones being deployed. or those friendly and warm hands i shook and those embracing smiles i encountered on my vacation to america a few years back with my bro would never be seen again. because of the three letter word, war. i would hate reading the papers in america and seeing names from my university yearbooks listed under "service notes" as being sent to undisclosed locations in the persian gulf. because it might be that not long ago they were five year olds with me, wondering what was going on, too young to fathom that one day they would be the ones fighting a war. war was, and still is to a mind that can't yet wrap itself around the idea, something that happened to our grandparents, not to us.
i am hundred percent, without a doubt against this war. but thats not what this is about. i pray that every single brave hero fighting out there goes home safely, along with every other first aid helpers stationed in the gulf. i just never thought that i would be sitting here worrying about the people away at war. it scares the hell out of me. when did this happen? and I hope all those five year olds out there, the Hayleys of the world, never have to grow up to feel this way. i hope that, by the time they are my age, every nation would have gotten its act together.
bitinn` awayy at 9:57 PM
"Every single person down there is ignoring your pain because they're too busy with their own. The beautiful ones. The popular ones. The guys that pick on you. Everyone. If you could hear what they were feeling. The loneliness. The confusion. It looks quiet down there. It's not. It's deafening."
- Buffy Summers, "Earshot"
bitinn` awayy at 9:26 PM
Tuesday, March 25, 2003yucks. second day at home. and all i had for lunch was... -drum rolls- plain white porridge. yepps. how exciting huh. -rolls eyes- but oh wells. that's all my stomach can take. erps. i dont like being ill. can someone save me? -looks up- i feel as though im in noah's ark. hahas.
][jukebox][ tv - growing up
][feeling][ yucks.
bitinn` awayy at 11:13 PM
Monday, March 24, 2003and make fools of us all?
ouch. am sick. [but no, am not infected with sars] and it doesnt feel good to be sick and not at school. because even the food before you looks so sickly. the porridge tastes like nothing but water. and the vege tastes as though it has been left alone for a thousand years. yucks. but am really touched today! cos jac prayed for me before she left home. she's like a great gift from heaven to me. without her, i'd not have received sucha wonderful gift of an eternal life. without her, there'd be not one there to comfort me when i cry late at night. without her, id surely not me where i am today. -smiless- jac, -huggs-. words cant express my feelings for you now mens!
][jukebox][ dc talk - what if i stumble
][feeling][ sick.
][jukebox][
bitinn` awayy at 9:18 PM
Friday, March 21, 2003yeay. had a fun day today! had northeast cl huddle at david's house. really got to know the northeast brothers better. and im starting to really look upon them as very humble and powerful leaders with a big heart for god. we celebrated freedy's birthday. today's the first time i interacted with him. and im really impressed. =) was working with him in the backyard cooking and washing up the place. he's like so helpful. everything that i was doing he went like "hey let me do this. you sit over there and read new paper. go go. let me do this." hahas. and in the end i didnt like help much. cos he wanted to do everything i did. and he's really nice. he saw my pink toenails and exclaimed "pink nails! nice!" and then he started giggling. he's really funny. like id never imagine a guy saying a girl looks good with pink toenails? he really has this kind heart. i cant help but start thinking where should i start from learning from him. pj was there too! and he's really funny. oh wells. no one's new to that. but it's fun playing with him as though he was one of us. and it really sees how much he would go to get to know his people better. and he's the first one who did not discriminate my tomato delicacy!!! and why doesnt anyone appreciate it? think i ate about four tomatoes and pj was like laying hands on me and said "god please heal veron her from her tomatoes" -.-"' dont you guys know tomatoes are healthy?! and wells, we got to know who are the blur ones in northeast. -glances over to cassian- then -points finger to kok leng- then -grinns at soph- hahas! wells. act im quite blur myself too. bahh. am really bad at playing double wacko. and we bought so much food that we had to play number games to finish all the foodie up. ooh and the wackiest thing i heard today was from daniel. we were sharing more about ourselves and we shared our ambitions when we were young. told them i used to want to be a fire fighter. and shuping just nodded her head. she didnt find that surprising. but daniel had the shocked look on his face. he was like glaring at me and pointing, saying "you? fire fighter?... whoah..." he said i didnt look like one. and the highlight of what he said was "but you look so soft and gentle" hahas. and kok leng was like yea yea yea! erm. oops. im sorry if i gave you guys the wrong idea. hahas! and they cant' believe i love climbing. bahh. im in girlguides.
][jukebox][ tim mcgraw.faith hill - it's your love
][feeling][ happy.
bitinn` awayy at 9:23 AM
Thursday, March 20, 2003yes. puay is finally going through puberty because her hormones are starting to rage and give her outbreaks. hahas. okay. im crazy. but today was sucha fun day. went for cg-cum-drama rehearsal at rix. was funny. love the last part. hehes. we're so ready for northeast presentation. hahas. cant wait. then went to la salle with shoes and toe. at first we went in and just walked around aimlessly. and everyone there seemed so hostile. yuck. and i like so disliked the atmosphere there. though the environment's so nice. we walked in and out for like four to five times before we thought we needed directions. so we went to the front counter and got our goodie bag and redeemed our free ice cream. then we walked in another time. and oh wells. we walked like two to three times in and out again before we decided to request for a person to guide us around. cuz everyone else had one except us! then we had all sorts of assumptions like they thought we looked too young and uninterested so they decided not to give us a guide. anyways we went back to the counter and told the lady we were kinda lost. and she took the leaflet out and started to tell us the day's program and where we could go. then we three looked at each other stupified. hahas. i guess she got our hint and asked if we wanted a guide. hahas. and toe was like so delighted she was like "ah! yes!" hahas. was so amusing. then this girl brought us around. and in and out again around the campus! omigawd. my legs were about the break already. but a guide really helped. cuz she could like explain everything to us. which we would never find out walking in and out so many times on our own. but ive like sorta decided to go to jc first before considering lasalle or nafa. because both sounds as good. so that's lasalle for us. and then they came to my house and three of us were like pushing each other off the piano chair. oh childish. yes yes i know. hahas. and i was trying out shoes' mep exam piece. she's gonna play the flute and im gonna be her pianist! hahs. let me warn you shoes first... i really aint good enough to be yer pianist. =/ and we like played around with the piano and com. bahh. am tired now.
][jukebox][ dc talk - colored people
][feeling][ contented
bitinn` awayy at 7:20 AM
Wednesday, March 19, 2003righters... shoes! call me when you see this. it's urgent.
bitinn` awayy at 6:28 AM
shoes:: lasalle is still on. but my toe is at camp. -sulks- how?
bitinn` awayy at 3:34 AM
Tuesday, March 18, 2003flipping through this morning's straits times before i left home for the first aid course really brought me jitters. war is coming. and saddam is only given forty eight or seventy two hours to quit his country! but yet this morning on the mrt train the lil juniors and fellow guides could still talk bout the chinese boyband energy?! and they were like so oblivious to the world happenings. and when i interrupted them by telling them what would last finally after the war, they like just stared at me. and i was like "what?!" then they carried on going gaga bout their energy. -rolls eyes- as if those guys care about how many soft toys or how much money you spend on them. hello... they dont even know you!!! oh mens. get a life. jesus is the answer.
][jukebox][ delirious - trading my sorrows
][feeling][ assured.
bitinn` awayy at 3:06 AM
Monday, March 17, 2003before blowing out the candle on a lil slice of cake
to mark the end of a night like tonight
had a long day today. -phews- woke up and spent time talking to the big guy up there and my mom. my mom act ranted a whole long story of my birthday histories. hahs. cute mom of mine. oh wells. then jew and xiuhui came over to my house without informing beforehand. and they act picked the clothes for me to wear. sheeshers. then we went to taka mos for lunch. and we had a great time laughing. -smiles- then brought them to membership class. it was cold in america room. brr. got the flu bug in me really active. then helped jiayi celine and reagan figure how to use the poloraid camera. then ran here and there to get stuff and was late fer seed. bahh. oh wells. you girls really surprised me. like everything went so normally lorr. the end part was really touching. i had no slightest hint of any surprises. hahas. was actually even bewildered when jessie switched the bright lights off for the dim orange ones and she suddenly exclaimed that it was romantic. hahas. thanks for that cheese cake yea. though you guys asked me to imagine the candles on it myself. hahas. thanks for the pretty card too! -beamms- then went to taka to meet the four d peeps for dinner at crystal jade. sixteen of us were there. got this nice cross necklace, a lil sweet friendship book and a huge famous amos cookie from them. sweet sweet. snapped lotsa pics too! can check it out on the right-hand panal of this page. hahas. yea. did a lil shopping with valtoh sam pei char ser. and after everyone left, i accompanied valtoh to hmv. and after that we went to take a neoprint together! -smiles- it's like the nicest one ive ever taken. we were like the last two at the shop and almost got locked inside. hahas. then we like walked all over. wherever we could and took crazy shots before we went to seven eleven to grap a gulp. and we headed home in a cab. before i got off, she gave me a tight squeeze. -smiles- iloveyouval. youre sucha sweet girl. yummie. like hunny! -grinns- thank you all for today.
[[helen.chocs.xiuhui.wanteng.may.jew.valtoh.kaishi.rach.wyn.
neoneo.ying.pei.josh.kaylee.fred]] thank you all for your sweet bday smses. -smiles- esp kaylee and fred. you two are like helluva sweet! am really touched you guys remember me all the way from denmark. thank you so much. =) i havent forgotten you two bumble bees. -bursts out in laughter upon remembering the hike-
[[all neb-ians]] thank you for the really well planned surprise. hahas. and praying for my wishes to come through. -smiles-
[[those sixteen at tonight's crystal jade dinner]] had a great time with you guys. -smiles-
[[valtoeeeeee]] -muahhs- youre the best girl! ai si ni le.
[[god]] ive told you all that i wanted to. -smiles- youre my fave.
][jukebox][ phillips dean and craig - when god ran
][feeling][
bitinn` awayy at 8:11 AM
Sunday, March 16, 2003uh huh. im not supposed to feel like this on a special day like today. it has lost its meaning.
][jukebox][ silence
][feeling][
bitinn` awayy at 8:54 AM
and thesarus-filled thoughts which dream of colour,
taint her crestfallen self; but no one reads
the newspaper print of truth in her eyes.
the kisses planted on her cheek are of
razorblades that seep and purge crimson wine
aged beverage that none attempt to consume
the belief that her soul endulges in poison.
her insanity is perceived after they inject her
with a morphine of resolute and hate
but they forget the little girl who cried
glassy jewels they deem too few. now.
none can comprehend the infatuation that followed a fall
the lust for metallic red splattered on her knees & arms
smearing the paint on her torn heart; her smile
is one of triumph and pure ownership.
she proves to be immune to their touches.
for every touch is really a push towards the edge.
they dont understand.
bitinn` awayy at 7:51 AM
illuminating paranoia
forsaken paradise you touch
your beautiful world cold and empty
no foreign breath that lingers
the sacred melody of faith
locked you in your loneliness
and what you believe
all in your palms you hold
they scatter in the wind
you weave your fairytale
an unknown purple road
your realm beholds a mystery
a picture i darent burn
my friend you hold the torch
rays that pierce the dim
your fantasies may differ
your thoughts of life at peace
your dreams may be simple
your smile warms my earth
white daises and orange sky
not a fiasco but fiduciary
you hold my hand and glow
i don't understand your thoughts
you emit love to my portrait world
i adore your pure innocence
your silence writes my life
bitinn` awayy at 7:41 AM
Saturday, March 15, 2003ooh... i am a tomato now according to my mum. a lobster according to eelee. a red dear according to rach. a wet happy girl according to some primary school girls. hahas. im just so sun burnt. bah... -searches high and low for some moisturiser- got a bad feeling my skin's gonna peel real soon. okay. i dont know where the hell is that bottle. -shouts fer jac- hahs. hers smells good! oh wells. what's with me and scents. hmns. anyways today's sn fff was a blast! i got dunked like over forty times. this bunch of guys were like dunking me for i dont know how many times til xiuhui came with this angry face to interrupt them. oh wells. she was unhappy that my school shorts were so short. hahas. alrights. ripped this off shoes' blog-
dealed wit a retarded kid (seriously. hes mentally unsound or sumthing)
who wuz abandoned by his mudder
he's damn sadistic
he wanted to throw the hockey ball at veron
NOT at the target
but luckily hes too weak
dealed wit some rascals
i think im pretty good at this. x) haha.
hahas! thanks shoes for protecting me! anyways we managed to pool in over seven hundred bucks to get our principal ms helen choo into the water. and a thousand over bucks to dunk our all time favourite v principal mrs cheong. hahas. i dunked mr foo!!! yea! payback time. hahs. met many people today. funny incidents too. especially the samuelneo one. it's nice to catch up with a good old friend whom you havent seen for four years. saw some others also and everyone has changed in one way or another. and sharon au is so chio so chio so chio!!! and she gave me a pat on my head. hahas. aint really sure how much the other classes collected or our food stall collected. but the amount of money our dunking collected is enough to make us the champs. hahas. anyways am really glad wyn and i managed to hear point 3ii of the sermon. hahas. and our group has been hitting fifteen continuously for two weeks! one more week to go before you see the emergence of ned! yea! -jumps around like how i did at the spects stand with shoes that made the pri girls call me the wet happy girl- hahas. oh wells. tiring day.
[shoes] youre mine for thurs and fri next week! we've got so much to do alrights. lasalle open house! and ive a new song in my head now! you so gotta hear it!!! -grinns-
p.s. fourdiligiants ][ is the class dinner on monday still on?
][jukebox][ phillips dean and craig
][feeling][ tired.
bitinn` awayy at 8:41 AM
Friday, March 14, 2003tomm's gonna be a blast!!! 4diligiants is gonna rock the school. -grinns- peeps gotta open yer ears for the dedication by fel and i alrights?!!! the song's gonna be our class song! one love... oohers. hahas.
][jukebox][dc talk - in the light
][feeling][ hyped
bitinn` awayy at 7:24 AM
Wednesday, March 12, 2003xiaoting. hey girl. it's the spirit of excellence i see in you that matters most. it's not how perfect and smooth things go. He sees your heart. -smiles- silly girl. but it really shows how strong in faith you are when you start to dislike faults. way to go girl! -huggs- take care of that lil beepy stomach of yours k? will buy you lotsa cake to eat when you get well since you missed eating jessie's birthday cake today. -shakes yer lil finger- promise. you were not the only one who screwed up anyways! everyone went way off tune. and my chords were so off too. oh wells. we'll just do a better job in leading worship next time alrights? -beamms-
][jukebox][ jaci velasquez - you
][feeling][
bitinn` awayy at 6:42 AM
Tuesday, March 11, 2003and i dont care
im still loving her
today was fun. -smiles- though i lost my wallet and cell. oh wells. bleah. why am i not bothered by it? -scratches head- anyways really had loadsa fun today. especially on our way to yishun sports hall to cheer for our netball teams. decided to play a prank on yogs. -bursts out laughing- i messaged her with my m card. so no one knows that number besides a very small number of people. this is the script of what happened. -smiles-
ron [sms]:: yo yong hui. i am stalking you.
-yogs reads the message and stones for a while-
-yogs shows the message to diana-
-diana checked her phone to see if it was someone she knew-
-diana shakes her head and gives yogs the frown-
-yogs shows the message to the rest around her(including myself)-
-those who knew tried very hard to control their outbursts-
sheryl : reply her larr!
yogs : but i dont know what to say?!
-everyone laughs-
wyn : call that number!
-ron switches off her phone-
yogs : as if she'll pick up? and if that person goes "im stalking you" i'll just faint i tell you!
di : use my phone larr.
-yogs frowns at di-
-someone used di's phone and called-
someone : unavailable.
-eveyone went "huh!"-
-yogs starts freaking out-
-we reach our destination and get off the bus-
-yogs was far in front-
-wyn and i were right behind-
-wyn calls yogs from my phone-
wyn : (in a monster voice) hello yong hui. im stalking you(sth like that)
-wyn hangs up and yogs started to really panic-
di : that stalker called?
yogs : yar. did you watch the exorcist?
di : yar.
yogs : i heard a sound
di : OHMIGAWD -runs frantically around-
wyn : so what did the stalker say?
-yogs frowns-
yogs : said yong hui in a funny sound.
wyn : issit like that (in the same monster voice) hello yong hui
-yogs raises eyebrows and nods vigorously-
yogs :yes!! ey how'd you know?
-wyn and ron bursts out laughing and points to wyn-
yogs : it was you wynnie cheong?!!!!
-wyn and ron still laughing, nod-
yogs : ohmigawd. you two!!
-wyn and ron explains-
yogs : dont ever do this again or i'll just turn into a freak.
that was really funny. i was laughing while typing it even. but now. i lost my phone. hahas. cuz after the match ended, went to pasta cafe with valtoh and had a great delightful meal. -smiles- spaghetti. yummie. my favourite. -beamms- but for now, my arm muscles are aching from yesterday's killer pe session. -bleahhs-
][jukebox][ phillips jean and dean - favourite song of all
][feeling][ cracked up.
bitinn` awayy at 8:03 AM
Monday, March 10, 2003cuts so deep it hurt
i help back the tears
held on to my pride and watched you go
urgh. this is what you define a home? -shakes head- it's a house. family? -shakes head- far from that. god, i know you understand. my prayer to you today is bring everyone in this house to wak in your light and turn this house into a home.
][jukebox][ dc talk - colored people
][feeling][ irked.
bitinn` awayy at 6:00 AM
Sunday, March 09, 2003and there's no longer fire in her laugh
hmns. life's moving quite slowly now. everything seems so slow paced on a sunday.
][jukebox][ lenny leblanc - we all bow down
][feeling][ slow
bitinn` awayy at 8:42 AM
Saturday, March 08, 2003sometimes slow motion moves too fast to capture the moment of our lives where everything changes for the shutter of the camera. it moves too fast for the words that blow our lives apart in one single slice; it moves too fast for the moment we look up into their eyes and see only one emotion, be it love, hate or pain. it moves too fast for the moment before the telephone rings with bad news; too fast for the moment we put our lives in the hands of a stranger; too fast for the moment we decide to live or die. our stories are made up of moments, frozen in time, film stills that play behind the eyes in the dark to an empty audience and of how still we stood, how swiftly these moments passed yet changed our lives forever.
today i experienced what they call the momentary and temporal happiness. when youre out there, you'll be singing and laughing over and over again. but when night comes and the gloom settles in on you, all you really want is a hug to let you know youre not alone serving on and on. i live for the audience of one. Him. i just simply wanna lift my hands and pray to be all he ever wanted me to be. and when i look at myself. i really hate sin. god. i dont want to be emotional. i just want emotions just enough for you and no one else. because this hurts. if you know how im feeling, save me from this turmoil in my mind.
][jukebox][ skillet - come my way
][feeling][ hurt
bitinn` awayy at 8:56 AM
Friday, March 07, 2003today was such a fun day. -beamms- did quite a bit of shopping mens. bought a ripcurl bag. a nice top that fel insisted that i had to get it. cuz she felt it was really pretty but she cant fit into it cuz her shoulders are too broad. a khaki green plaited skirt that val and i so like. lol. went to nafa¡¯s open house with val and shoex. it¡¯s like everything¡¯s so cool at nafa. the open house was so much better than the art trip on monday. that beautiful painting i saw on monday was completed when i saw it today! gawd. that painting was just... i don¡¯t know. i give it many many many thumbs up. if only i had that many. but i was really marveled by it. i so love it!!! if it¡¯s gonna be for sale, i¡¯ll buy it. really. when we went there we were already the last visitors. so they were like wanting so desperately to clear their lucky dip gifts they gave each of us every single kinda freebie they had to offer. hahas. so we had like many stuff to bring home. ¨Csmiles- they are so nice and friendly. and this fashion guy shervin (or sherwin) brought us around. i think i asked alot of silly questions. =/ cuz valtoh kept covering my mouth everytime i begin to speak. bleahs. anyways he was really a kind soul. took out time of his lesson to bring us around. and he¡¯s like really passionate bout what he¡¯s doing. but there¡¯s this erm. funny rule in nafa. hahas. guys arent allowed to wear tank tops. lol. so i was asking if that was because it¡¯d make it more diff to identify the... ¨Cahems- pardon me. hahas. but oh wells. am really hyped up fer service tomms. ¨Csmiles- can¡¯t wait for wanteng to get into dance ministry! her interview¡¯s tomms morning. ladidums. black and white... wanna see what puay came up with. hahas.
][jukebox][ suede ¨C positivity
][feeling][ happy
bitinn` awayy at 8:53 AM
Thursday, March 06, 2003and glittered and glued
sparkle in the sunlight
make me an angel with your
prettie hands, my god.
and be careful not to tear my
fragile heart angels please
because pieces of paper
shapes and letters
are all i have left in my world
so dark and strange now
no words are spoken
no dreams are dreamt
just three coloured paper angels hanging on
my window twisting and turning with the
wind reminded me of all that I was before
until you blew in on the northern wind
and swept my sorrows away
bitinn` awayy at 7:25 AM
telling you the same old story
oh wells. i dont know how to feel about the debate yesterday. it's a good thing that we won our semi finals. but is it a good thing that we cant get into the finals? -breathes- oh wells. so long as we gave our best shot and yogs got the best speaker. -smiles- well done gurl. but i really think they should just do away with reply speeches. i just totally screwed mine up. i vaguely knew what i was rattling bout. even ruizi wasnt clear of what she was speaking. but perhaps if she did, we wouldnt have won. but oh wells. am going to the career aspiration fair tomms. wanna get a new bag from flash and splash... brr. i just cannot stop changing bags. what a habit. anyways today's cg was quite hilarious. there was like this so extreme difference in atmosphere at the beginning of it and at it's ending. it's good to have god in the center of our relationships. -nods head with conviction- let me share this little lame thing josh did today as i was walking home. i was walking down to my house when i received a message reading "i am stalking you" from a foreign number. and because i just happened to walk less than five metres away from the construction site, i became quite scared. so i began to walk faster. then i saw this shadow behind mine on the road. i got really scared i ran. and that shadow was chasing mine. then it caught up with mine. before i knew it i was pinned onto the wall. and when i turned around, lo and behold, josh was laughing away. brr. he got a new phone today and happened to hop off the bus behind mine. it really wasnt funny. but when we reached outside our houses he laughed at my stupidity. urgh. but come to think of it, i was really silly. lol. oh. before you guys get the wrong idea, josh stays opposite my house. yea. neighbours. lol.
][jukebox][ dc talk - colored people
][feeling][ lethargic.
bitinn` awayy at 7:19 AM
Tuesday, March 04, 2003as long as you hold it in your heart
phews. im like having this gastric going on and off that can be fatal any moment. lol. my muscle aches arent healing either. and looking at the hours of sleep i get, it's not helping too. oh wells. theres been like so much talk bout my future with my classmates, parents and people nowadays. i sometimes wonder why am i talking bout what im actually gonna do when im thirty?! like hey, chills. im only fifteen going on sixteen. there's like career aspirations coming on... nafa offers... la salle invites... bleahs. and i almost sparked off a war with my dad yesterday because of my future. bleahs. but im glad ive the holy spirit dwelling in me so im anointed with more self control. hahas. almost spat vulgarities at my sis last night too. but did not. hahas. now ive just gotta work on my inner attitude. anyways. cut fio and yings hair today! lol. i can open a salon at 4dilgiant's balcony already and start charging ten bucks per head or something. that was a great suggestion from nette. hahas. gonna cut nette's hair someday and shux' too! hahas. sorry pei for erm. yea. the hair infested balcony. =/ oh wells. im so packed fer the week. ive really got more things coming my way boy. so many eelee's right. i shouldnt join the music ministry no matter how much passion i have for music or the keyboard and stuff. oh wells. im fine in deco and now i gotta help the publicity ministry. so would i be having two ministry? lol. publicity can be my part time. and gotta do the north east webbie. we're regionalising! yeah! now we shall unlease our co[n]qu[e]ror power! ladidums. and next next monday, which is my birthday, -smiles-, we'll be having a north east unite seed at east coast. [i think] there's gonna be like so much to do for this saturday's black and white at istana park. brr. having guys around will be like... wells, what can i say, but weird! nevertheless, i like serving god. -smiles-
][jukebox][ voices of theory - say it
][feeling][ pain
bitinn` awayy at 6:36 AM
Monday, March 03, 2003but a reaction when you simply cant take it anymore
reaction is not an act
but a piece of play done not realized
oh god. im so tired. tired. tired. i really feel as though im going to snap. give me your strength will you? -sighs- im like having muscle aches all over and have salon pas pasted all over my body. i feel so... mummified. brr. ive been doing such physical stuff since saturday morning at guides hq. to think uncle mail said all those exagerating stuff bout me. cuz i was tying the rope ladder when mrs regina oon came to say hi to me. so i like took the time off my test to chat with her. lol. i know i was crazy or something. but i really havent caught up with her for a seriously long time after the denmark trip. miss her mens. yeps. so i was tying tying and the tester came shouting "three more mins veronica!". then i sighed. and mrs oon went "veron quick larr! why so slow?!" then uncle mail heard it from the field and he shouted "veron? dont worry larr. camp challenge no problem, denmark no problem, rope ladder, no problem eh!" mrs oon and the tester were like laughing then i threw my rope ladder down. then uncle mail said "ah! relax larr. veron eh! sure can make it" sheesher. he's really lame. but now my bones are breaking cuz of the three hours hike i finished in forty five mins. brr. and i was actually smart enough to go rollerblading yesterday. and today's pe has killed all my cells already. urgh. and there's like so many tests coming up. my head's like pounding really hard. feels as though my head's like that pin ball game where the metal balls go bonkers hitting the sides of the machine vigorously. ywuks.
well today's trip to nafa and square sculpture was surely an eye opener. but going to nafa is like so way out for me. sighs. there's this painting in the portrait studio of this really good looking guy. it is so beautifully painted i wanted to carry the painting home. but it's halfway done. i mean the colors were so wild and outrageous they go so well to paint such a beautiful picture. his eyes were that charming and his nose was that defined. it's like i wonder if the model's really that good looking real life because some others painted the same guy really yuckily. lol. the people there are so artsy fartsy. like when we were in the exhibition studio this three guys walked in and they looked really cool. like funny hair and dressing and funky bags. and they've this air and attitude in them i cant pen down in words. then at sculpture square we met this really hilarious artist - mohammad bin mohammad. hahas. or sth like that. yep yeps. and charl was like sucha bimboe asking such silly an ridiculous questions. mr foo told that artist she was from timbucktu. hahas hilarious. but had fun. oh wells. im really tired.
][jukebox][ dc talk - love is a verb
][feeling][ tired.
bitinn` awayy at 7:51 AM
Sunday, March 02, 2003when you made everything right again
with your extraordinary love
suddenly. im feeling upset. it's this feeling of something absent somewhere- in my heart. -breathes- that breath couldnt go all the way in. cuz there's a hole somewhere in me. hahs. im lame.
][jukebox][ joy enriquez - how can i not love you
][feeling dejected.
bitinn` awayy at 8:35 AM
Saturday, March 01, 2003i promise you stole my heart away
ethan is nice. he came up to me to thank me. though i dont know for what reason exactly. i just assumed larrs. hahas. and shared with him eelee's new brilliant strategy and what ive done so far. and he stood there listening and just grinned and grinned and grinned. sheesher. like he hasnt been speaking to me since two weeks after faith camp. so why the sudden five hundred and forty turn? -shrugs- was like stoning away at hub center with xiaoting. oh wells. jew sprained her ankle today. bought her an orange gebera! so that she'll always be as cheery as the sun. =) yhope celebrated all the march babies' birthdays today and i got a kiss from my dear! -smiles- ok girl just in case you only heard myomigawd when you kissed me, here's the full sentence "omigawd dear youre so sweet!" cuz before i could finish my sentence i was hugging jiayi already. hahas. and so you found out valtoh is my girlfriend. -pulls my ears- im sorry kaes? dont get joyce to be yer next. -shakes head- hahas.
anyways i got my pioneer badge cert with the first round of test. =) didnt retake any clauses. -smiles- god's good. and i managed to get to wfl but to my horror, where has all the hair gone to?! -faints-
after dinner i went to centerpoint with val and met jiayi cel yanyan shufen weiling susie. then we went to walk around together. and at this warehouse shop weiling took this miss selfridge pink girly underwear and asked shufen to buy it. shufen started to run around the shop while weiling chased after her with that pink girly underwear she was holding. lol. they really created a scene. guess everyone at that shop was stunned at their misbehavior. then the other six of us pretended not to know them. hahas. and yanyan is really crazy. we can get along really well. when you put us, the two screwed girls, together, it equals to madness. hahas. we were like fooling around. oh how i like playing with them. yanyan is really hilarious.
oh wells. happy sweet sixteen to you. =)
][jukebox][ enrique iglesias - maybe
][feeling][ mad.
bitinn` awayy at 7:55 AM
```let me say.
just let me say
how much iloveu.
just let me live
in the shadow of your beauty.
just let me hear
your finest whispers.
til im found
completely surrendered.
```his child.
ron. 170387// icq.#74777649// yhoppie// deco ministry// neb3// jesse's.sheep// stnix// 4dee// sngg//
turnons. Him// red.black// two// tea// spag// piano// clavinova// EL-87// guitar// drummers// strawberry// peach// apple// tomato// chilli//
turnoffs. creepy crawlees// school// unoriginals// noise// imood.
```stringed.
::n.e.b.
::guestbook.
::alvin.
::ben.
::bryan.
::celine.
::christine.
::clarissa.
::deb.
::di.
::jas.
::jew.
::jiam.
::jiayi.
::jo.
::joe.
::joo.
::kaishi.
::kat.
::kenn.
::kinyip.
::lav.
::ling.
::luan.
::luanne.
::may.
::nette.
::puay.
::pei.
::rach.
::rei.
::sam.
::shubei.
::shux.
::soph.
::ting.
::valneo.
::valtoh.
::vien.
::wyn.
::xun.
::yeoks.
::yings.
::yogs.
::blogger.
```lookingback.
12/08/2002 - 12/14/2002
12/15/2002 - 12/21/2002
12/22/2002 - 12/28/2002
12/29/2002 - 01/04/2003
01/05/2003 - 01/11/2003
01/12/2003 - 01/18/2003
01/19/2003 - 01/25/2003
02/02/2003 - 02/08/2003
02/09/2003 - 02/15/2003
02/16/2003 - 02/22/2003
02/23/2003 - 03/01/2003
03/02/2003 - 03/08/2003
```lookingood.
blacknwhite.
mvpcg.
170303.
fourdiligence.
cl huddle.
just let me say
how much iloveu.
just let me live
in the shadow of your beauty.
just let me hear
your finest whispers.
til im found
completely surrendered.
```his child.
ron. 170387// icq.#74777649// yhoppie// deco ministry// neb3// jesse's.sheep// stnix// 4dee// sngg//
turnons. Him// red.black// two// tea// spag// piano// clavinova// EL-87// guitar// drummers// strawberry// peach// apple// tomato// chilli//
turnoffs. creepy crawlees// school// unoriginals// noise// imood.
```stringed.
::n.e.b.
::guestbook.
::alvin.
::ben.
::bryan.
::celine.
::christine.
::clarissa.
::deb.
::di.
::jas.
::jew.
::jiam.
::jiayi.
::jo.
::joe.
::joo.
::kaishi.
::kat.
::kenn.
::kinyip.
::lav.
::ling.
::luan.
::luanne.
::may.
::nette.
::puay.
::pei.
::rach.
::rei.
::sam.
::shubei.
::shux.
::soph.
::ting.
::valneo.
::valtoh.
::vien.
::wyn.
::xun.
::yeoks.
::yings.
::yogs.
::blogger.
```lookingback.
12/08/2002 - 12/14/2002
12/15/2002 - 12/21/2002
12/22/2002 - 12/28/2002
12/29/2002 - 01/04/2003
01/05/2003 - 01/11/2003
01/12/2003 - 01/18/2003
01/19/2003 - 01/25/2003
02/02/2003 - 02/08/2003
02/09/2003 - 02/15/2003
02/16/2003 - 02/22/2003
02/23/2003 - 03/01/2003
03/02/2003 - 03/08/2003
```lookingood.
blacknwhite.
mvpcg.
170303.
fourdiligence.
cl huddle.