Friday, January 24, 2003
cause i feel you right deep down in my heart
secfourdiligence just rocks to the core! we're the vibrant and funky class mens. i cant wait to finish painting everything tomms and we'll just be so delighted with ourselves. -grinns- am really happy that many came down to paint today. at least we're getting somewhere with most walls painted. gosh i cant contain the excitment bursting out in me to go back to class and paint tomms morning. first time of the year im actually looking forward to waking up early and go to, of all places, school. hahas. ive had lotsa fun today. the "discussion" at the canteen with pei, sam, yogs, char and ser was a major laughing session. -smiles- puay's coming to stayover tomms! which means i'll be seeing her at school at eleven thirty, then we'll be together, even at the same wfl class, til clm at night til she comes over, sleep and wake up on sunday then do some shopping before going to clm. -grinns- we'll be stuck together. -grinns- does a lil shoutout :: lovepuay lovepuay!!!
][jukebox][ blaque - when the last teardrop falls
][feeling][ excited. =D
bitinn` awayy at 6:59 AM
Wednesday, January 22, 2003its the word thats god
tuition just now was comical. cheehwee and i finished a whole box of tissue paper in two hours. -claps- both of us were sneezing and sneezing. hahas and together we went through amath very sickly. hahas. and my sis came up with cold tablets and strepsils and whatever stuff she thought could cure us from the kitchen. okay. everyone's sick now. almost all my sheepies are ill. must pray for recovery for all. -nods- today's 3388 was great in the rain. hahas. i was drenched. but its act quite romantic taking a stroll in the rain. lalas. laogong shall we do that some time? hahas. narh. forget it. pretend i didnt say anything. im just so looking forward to puay staying overnight on sat after service. -whoops!- i feel more excited being around her. lols. change of heart. i just did a mini prayer list thing and seems as though it's not mini at all with that long long list. oh wells, it's called the for god to do list. =) righteys. gonna continue mugging after i take a pill or two and a nice warm but quick shower. -smiles contentedly- i like my life. even though im sick. always look on the bright side of life...
][jukebox][ silence.
][feeling][ sick but contented.
bitinn` awayy at 6:47 AM
Tuesday, January 21, 2003then why does my soul feel glad?
bio and chem's draining my life away. my concentration span is so super short. im so ill-disciplined. cant even pay full attention in class or sit at the table and study properly. bah!!! i need to be more self-motivated and keep thinking wwjd. im going back to my books now... talk bout phagocytes and lymphocytes and leucocytes and erythrocytes. mens. they simply mean white and red blood cells. hahas. tell me what's the cheemology here. -bursts out in laughter-
and no. i dont understand. i still dont get it. is it me or is life just complex? =/
][jukebox][ daniel
][feeling] in a nerd mode.
bitinn` awayy at 6:01 AM
Sunday, January 19, 2003because i wanna be your conqueror
-scratches head- i wanna ask my mom to go for sunday services now that she can get outta house. but... how?
-twitches eyebrows- i wanna grow my group to seven. but... ive been saying this for such a long time.
-pulls a face- idontcareanymore im just really gonna wham through all obstacles.
because i know He's with me
because i know He's worthy.
i really want to win this fight with all i have victoriously knowing ive put in all my best. im never letting my zeal extinguish.
][jukebox][ point of grace - begin with me
][feeling][ set on fire.
bitinn` awayy at 5:34 AM
Saturday, January 18, 2003what else can i say but, im having a mixture of emotions. it's just going all wild in me. god, i need a grip.
bitinn` awayy at 6:53 AM
Friday, January 17, 2003enchant me with Your tender loving
those two lines are so sweet aint they? it flashed through my visions in my dreams. decided to put that into the song i came up with. somehow it goes, but somehow, it doesnt. im just so frustrated bout not getting the whole thing right. can anyone help me? and shucks. ive decided to drop my piano lessons. as in quit it cuz my schedule's packed like crazy. where am i gonna find time to go for grade seven? i'll just flunk it. of course i dont just wanna pass it as usual. but this time i know for sure im not gonna make it like that. these few days have been bad. there's like so much to do. the work just keeps piling and the few hours i get to sleep are just dashed by silly nightmares. recently ive been really freaked up in my mind ive no idea why ive been having continuous horrifying visions everytime i close my eyes. like if i sleep at twelve, i'll have episode one and jerk up at two. then i'll spend bout half an hour calming down and praying before i sleep at two thirty. then it's episode two and i'll jerk up again at four thirty. then i'll spend bout another half an hour calmin down and praying before i sleep at five. then i'll see words flashing through my mind. like the one in bold above. that two lines came together with the word god. ive no idea how to explain this. but it's just freaky. shant talk bout that serial nightmare. i just feel super uneasy at the thought of it. and i simply do not have that bit of gut to sleep at night unless i pray. it's been like that for a week. and at times i feel so haunted by it whenever i close my eyes. oh, talk bout fear. but i know God's by my bedside. He's always my source of assurance. -grinns- it's saturday tomms!!! !! ! guides is just gonna be fun, fun and more fun. lol. the seniors are coming back. i seriously miss them. but im more looking forward to service. =)
][jukebox][ geoff bullock - just let me say
][feeling][ assured.
bitinn` awayy at 7:41 AM
Thursday, January 16, 2003quote wenbing...
tunder_light@hotmail.com says:
hahahahaha
tunder_light@hotmail.com says:
tunder_light@hotmail.com says:
no wat this
tunder_light@hotmail.com says:
i see u
tunder_light@hotmail.com says:
only
unquote.
-beamms- wen bing's just super cute. can't wait to see him again on saturday. lalas. -jumps off to bed-
][jukebox][jay chou - ban dao tie he
][feeling][delighted. =D
bitinn` awayy at 7:34 AM
Wednesday, January 15, 2003for it was bad enough before their spite
made a pact with yings today. if we flunk today's physics test, we're both dropping it together. guess ive had enough of trying and trying. they say, if you still fail after a thousands tries, go for a thousand and one tries. oh wells, i need a breather first. urgh. it's only the second week of school but i feel as though ive been in school for a whole lifetime. grr... anyways i can't wait for friday!!! RJVP E outing. hahas. cant wait. cant wait. -beamms- today's cg was great! everyone was present with helen and joann in addition. -grinns- oh. and some nec bros can be really lame. thought sihan was bad enough. but had another lame "encounter" with edwin. -.-"" and! listening to avril's songs really gives me the urge to grab her tix and watch her. but she's such a poser! but then again, she's majorly chio. okay. i need to make up my mind. anyways im still suffering over the post-jay chou blues. and no, i do not worship secular music, pherd. -grinns- it's just... yar... you know... yar! i know you know how it feels like. -bursts out in laughter-
][jukebox][ avril - falling down
][feeling][ caught in the middle.
bitinn` awayy at 7:24 AM
Saturday, January 11, 2003for I have found where my assurance lies
it is not in my own power but in who my savior is
and the truth of this conviction makes me shout to the sky
i am writing this to you// and I hope that one day soon// you will come to realize// you are precious in His eyes// i know you feel alone// a million miles from home// it seems that know one cares// that life is so unfair// hold on to this promise like it's your last breath// let it fill your heart when it's all you have left//you gotta believe// you gotta be strong// you gotta have faith enough to know no matter where you are// He is always with you// never give up// never give in// His only son died for all our sins and he will lift you up// and hold you in his love// He gave his son// He sends his love// when the weight is just too much// and theres no one you can trust// when it's dark and youre afraid// let the spirit guide your way// there is so much left to do// a great big world to wander through// so many people in your life// waiting to see your smile//His love is all around you// a fortress that surrounds you// let it comfort and protect you from the storm// it's time to start a new day// He will help you find your way to a better place
he's so great he can move in her heart. someone who has never heard of his name or even thought god existed can be touched by his love so much it brings tears to her eyes. it was so touching to see the tears bursting outta her eyes and wanting to respond but dared not take that step of faith. i feel for her. well, im sure god has a better plan ahead for her. one day, some day, she'll be in His arms crying instead of being alone. to love God is a curious thing. the more you give, it seems the more He brings His love back to you.
][jukebox][point of grace - yes i believe
][feeling][ marveled.
bitinn` awayy at 10:57 AM
Friday, January 10, 2003we've never been apart
those roses are real. hahas. heard they cost a bomb but oh wells. can never get enough of dark red full bloom roses and geberas as well as spending time with my dig cam. -beamms- phwee. just came home from kenny roge with pei, char, yang, ling, ping, charl and eileen. it's been a long long time. we talked bout our class stuff and im oh so hyped up bout painting our walls and im in for grids grids grids and not
][jukebox][ avril lavigne - i want you to want me
][feeling][ hyped.
bitinn` awayy at 7:44 AM
Thursday, January 09, 2003celine. if youre reading this, let me lead you in a secret. -whispers- you make me feel slow. yarr. so u got a blog and i had to find out bout it myself. -sulkks- and you were talking bout being 'zi dong' in yer latest entry. brr. how zidong. and why does wyn nie's [pherd, im making a point to put in that space =)] link have a smiley there and mine doesnt? (>_<) but its alright at least i got to peep into your private life. -bursts out in laughter- =D anyways, just a gentle reminder. dont mess wif my dear. -grinns-
bitinn` awayy at 6:04 AM
just, him, and me!
-smacks head on the table- aint it so wundaful ter fall in luf wif that same big guy all over again and again and again everyday with that lufsick smile on your face when you wake up every single morning and looking at the sun with that swooning emotion that makes you go "ahh..." as though you were gazing into His sparkling eyes? -falls into his arms- okiedoks. now i cant wait ter see him face to face!!! !! ! -yelps yelps yelps!- cuz when i touch you, that's when i know im in heaven's paradise.
][jukebox][ vonda shepard - i know him by heart [[yes, i truly do]]
][feeling][ loved.
bitinn` awayy at 5:56 AM
Wednesday, January 08, 2003that's what everyone's telling me. -breathes- i will.
][jukebox][ avril lavigne - why
][feeling][ drained.
bitinn` awayy at 3:31 AM
Saturday, January 04, 2003alive
service was hilarious. doing the video feature was funny. kissing valtoh was the highlight of today! -chuckles- valtoh's so kissable. -grinns- and pherd's expression seemed as though she was in agony as she exclaimed "why do i have sheeps like that?!" bwahahas. so i got my vioce back some time after eelee and pherd prayed for me. =) godisreal. -winkks-
][jukebox][ point of grace - circle of friends
][feeling][ crazy. totally. =D
bitinn` awayy at 9:49 AM
Friday, January 03, 2003i place at your feet
sighs. god, i need my voice back. purrrlleeeeaassseee...
i live for you// all that i am// all that i do// my heart beats with you// and each day i wake// i think of you// you are why i sing// you are why i live// everything of me// i place at your feet// you are why i love// you are why i give// everything of me belongs to you// i live for you// you are my god// you are the truth// you are all that i need// my soul it longs for more of you//
][jukebox][ youth alive - u.r.y
][feeling][ sad and ill.
bitinn` awayy at 8:01 AM
Thursday, January 02, 2003dear god,
here is your child,
down on her knees.
can you hear a heart yell?
could you ever see?
so much to be said,
yet cant be told.
wanting all these to fade,
yet still cant let go.
i need her so much.
she's someone so dear.
yet in times like such,
it's you i fear.
are you taking her away?
then again, why?
all i can do is stand at bay
and pray she won't die.
god, will you protect her,
and stay by her side always?
will you answer this prayer
and be with her for all days?
in jesus' name i pray, amen.
bitinn` awayy at 3:00 AM
```let me say.
just let me say
how much iloveu.
just let me live
in the shadow of your beauty.
just let me hear
your finest whispers.
til im found
completely surrendered.
```his child.
ron. 170387// icq.#74777649// yhoppie// deco ministry// neb3// jesse's.sheep// stnix// 4dee// sngg//
turnons. Him// red.black// two// tea// spag// piano// clavinova// EL-87// guitar// drummers// strawberry// peach// apple// tomato// chilli//
turnoffs. creepy crawlees// school// unoriginals// noise// imood.
```stringed.
::n.e.b.
::guestbook.
::alvin.
::ben.
::bryan.
::celine.
::christine.
::clarissa.
::deb.
::di.
::jas.
::jew.
::jiam.
::jiayi.
::jo.
::joe.
::joo.
::kaishi.
::kat.
::kenn.
::kinyip.
::lav.
::ling.
::luan.
::luanne.
::may.
::nette.
::puay.
::pei.
::rach.
::rei.
::sam.
::shubei.
::shux.
::soph.
::ting.
::valneo.
::valtoh.
::vien.
::wyn.
::xun.
::yeoks.
::yings.
::yogs.
::blogger.
```lookingback.
12/08/2002 - 12/14/2002
12/15/2002 - 12/21/2002
12/22/2002 - 12/28/2002
12/29/2002 - 01/04/2003
01/05/2003 - 01/11/2003
01/12/2003 - 01/18/2003
01/19/2003 - 01/25/2003
02/02/2003 - 02/08/2003
02/09/2003 - 02/15/2003
02/16/2003 - 02/22/2003
02/23/2003 - 03/01/2003
03/02/2003 - 03/08/2003
```lookingood.
blacknwhite.
mvpcg.
170303.
fourdiligence.
cl huddle.
just let me say
how much iloveu.
just let me live
in the shadow of your beauty.
just let me hear
your finest whispers.
til im found
completely surrendered.
```his child.
ron. 170387// icq.#74777649// yhoppie// deco ministry// neb3// jesse's.sheep// stnix// 4dee// sngg//
turnons. Him// red.black// two// tea// spag// piano// clavinova// EL-87// guitar// drummers// strawberry// peach// apple// tomato// chilli//
turnoffs. creepy crawlees// school// unoriginals// noise// imood.
```stringed.
::n.e.b.
::guestbook.
::alvin.
::ben.
::bryan.
::celine.
::christine.
::clarissa.
::deb.
::di.
::jas.
::jew.
::jiam.
::jiayi.
::jo.
::joe.
::joo.
::kaishi.
::kat.
::kenn.
::kinyip.
::lav.
::ling.
::luan.
::luanne.
::may.
::nette.
::puay.
::pei.
::rach.
::rei.
::sam.
::shubei.
::shux.
::soph.
::ting.
::valneo.
::valtoh.
::vien.
::wyn.
::xun.
::yeoks.
::yings.
::yogs.
::blogger.
```lookingback.
12/08/2002 - 12/14/2002
12/15/2002 - 12/21/2002
12/22/2002 - 12/28/2002
12/29/2002 - 01/04/2003
01/05/2003 - 01/11/2003
01/12/2003 - 01/18/2003
01/19/2003 - 01/25/2003
02/02/2003 - 02/08/2003
02/09/2003 - 02/15/2003
02/16/2003 - 02/22/2003
02/23/2003 - 03/01/2003
03/02/2003 - 03/08/2003
```lookingood.
blacknwhite.
mvpcg.
170303.
fourdiligence.
cl huddle.